Bitter Honey

2011-01-05T23:08:00.003+11:00

Just So You Know

2010-12-28T02:47:00.002+11:00

2010-12-20T22:00:00.002+11:00

2010-12-20T21:06:00.000+11:00

2010-12-19T14:50:00.000+11:00

人生的意義

「傳道者說，虛空的虛空，虛空的虛空。凡事都是虛空。人一切的勞碌，就是他在日光之下的勞碌，有甚麼益處呢。一代過去，一代又來。地卻永遠長存。」傳1：2-4

世上有一件很無奈及可悲的事，不知你有沒有想過？

當我們年輕時，我們活力充沛，可惜卻年少無知、經常做錯事。當年紀較長時，我們的知識及經驗豐富了，滿以為可以盡情發揮潛能，卻發覺身體機能漸漸地衰退。最諷刺的是，當你成就最高，人生智慧累計最多的時候，已是老態龍鍾，不久就要離開世界了……

你一生勞苦所獲得的才幹及東西，累積到達最高峰時就要面對死亡，而死後竟然是一無所有，你曾否想想，這樣的人生有什麼意義？

其實這個問題，不是哲學家才去思想，我們每一個人也應該好好思想一下。坦白說，你認為人死後甚麼也沒有，這事合情理嗎？你希望如此嗎？若你的良心認為人死後生命應該仍有延續，你也的確希望如此，那為什麼你從不為此事去了解多些及準備一下？這是一件非常實際及嚴肅的事，是每一個人必需面對的，沒法能逃避。你知道你死後往那裏去嗎？我不是想唱高調，但若你不知你人生最後的目的地是什麼，那麼人生的目的也不必談了。你整個人生只不過是一個過程，工作、休息、再工作；吃完再吃，喝完再喝，玩完再玩。一個過程而已，過程的終結呢？一無所有。說到此處，我心裏實在很難過，我真不希望各位讀者落得如此的結局。

聖經告訴我們，人死後是有延續的，是有歸宿的，而人在世界上短短幾十年的生命，是為了預備將來的永遠。你認為這樣合情理嗎？你不要以為人死後靈魂存在，飄流無定，這就算是很好的了。不是的，聖經告訴我們，不單靈魂有歸宿，我們的身體也會復活的：「他們卻羡慕一個更美的家鄉，就是在天上的」(來 11:16)；「死人復活也是這樣。所種的是必朽壞的，復活的是不朽壞的。所種的是羞辱的，復活的是榮耀的。所種的是軟弱的，復活的是強壯的。所種的是血氣的身體，復活的是靈性的身體。若有血氣的身體，也必有靈性的身體。」林前15：42-44。全本聖經說及「復活」超過一百五十次。你認為神這樣安排好不好？原來我們死後可以去到天上的家鄉，得著新的身體，繼續有意義的活下去，享受神所賜永遠的福樂。我想這是很多人的想望。

然而，一個嚴肅的問題便出現了。到底你有沒有為此事作出準備？

你會為明天後天準備，會為十年八年後的事準備，會為退休後的生活準備，但你從不為死後的永遠備準，這合乎理嗎？你認為自己的身體很壯健，可以活到八十九十歲，而用幾十年時間來準備永遠你覺得太不值得？永遠的福，永遠的禍，就在今生短短幾十年內決定，這實在是太嚴重的事情！永遠，過了一千萬億年還未算是開始的永遠，就在這短暫的時間內決定，有時甚至在人死前數秒內決定！然而，世上竟然有很多人不單沒有為此作出準備，甚至連想也沒有想過！

主耶穌被釘死之前一夜，祂告訴門徒將要發生在祂身上的事，他們都覺得很難過，因為他們的夫子要離去了。但主耶穌卻安慰他們說：

「你們心裡不要憂愁。你們信神，也當信我。在我父的家裡，有許多住處。若是沒有，我就早已告訴你們了。我去原是為你們預備地方去。我若去為你們預備了地方，就必再來接你們到我那裡去，我在那裡，叫你們也在那裡。」約14：1-3 。

儘管人不為自己預備，主耶穌卻為人去預備。祂真的很愛我們的。祂怎樣為我們預備呢？「因為人子來，並不是要受人的服事，乃是要服事人，並且要捨命，作多人的贖價。」可10:45。原來按照神的律法，犯罪的人要接受刑罰，根本沒有可能進神的國：「情慾的事，都是顯而易見的。就如姦淫、污穢、邪蕩、拜偶像、邪術、仇恨、爭競、忌恨、惱怒、結黨、紛爭、異端、嫉妒、醉酒、荒宴等類，我從前告訴你們，現在又告訴你們，行這樣事的人，必不能承受神的國。」加 5：19-21 。但人誰無過呢？人怎能一生不犯罪而坦然進入天家呢？實在不能。那怎麼辨呢？神抽手旁觀嗎？不是的。神主動差祂的兒子耶穌來到世上，為我們釘十字架贖罪。各位親愛的讀者，你們千萬不要輕看「贖罪」這件事。「贖罪」是你我進入天家及得永生的關鍵。我們一切從罪而來應得的刑罰，全由主耶穌一力承當！主耶穌甘願代替我們受罰，為我們犧牲，贖去你我一切的罪！

「他被掛在木頭上親身擔當了我們的罪，使我們既然在罪上死，就得以在義上活。」彼2:24；「祂是愛我，為我捨己。」加2:20。

罪的問題一解決，我們便立即與神恢復關係，我們立即得著神的生命，我們便能到主耶穌為我們預備的天家，我們可以繼續有意義的活下去，永永遠遠。

或問，怎樣得到以上所說的恩典？各位親愛的讀者，我說出來你們可能覺得難以置信，因為實在太簡單。方法就是—信。只要你懷著一個悔罪的心，相信主耶穌為你的罪釘十架的事實，接受祂作你的救主，那你就得著永生了。

「神愛世人，甚至將他的獨生子賜給他們，叫一切信他的，不至滅亡，反得永生。」約3:16。

原來接受永生，就是這樣簡單—信。當你一信耶穌，接受了神的生命後，你的人生觀立即就會起變化。你不再是單為自己生活，你開始為神及其他人而活。你會看見今世的富貴名利，物質享受，終有一天會過去。你開始不太重視這些短暫的東西。反而你會漸漸地多作一些幫助人及榮耀神的事，而正正就是這些事，給你人生最大的意義，而這些事才是有永遠的價值的：

「這世界，和其上的情慾，都要過去。唯獨遵行神旨意的，是永遠常存。」約壹2:17。

你願意相信主耶穌嗎？你願意揀選天家為歸宿嗎？你願意有一個有意義、有永恆價值的人生嗎？

耶穌顯出，無限慈愛，

恩門為你大開，

時乎，時乎，未必再來，

請你快來信祂！

不久離世，要往那裏？

天堂？或是地獄？

快樂，痛苦，都是永遠，

請你快來信祂！

不過信他，不過信他，

現在要來信，

祂能救你，祂能救你，

現在要救你。

請祈禱：

神啊，我承認自己是一個罪人，自己不能救自己。現在我願意離開罪惡，求你赦免我的罪，賜我永生。我相信主耶穌為我的罪死，又信祂從死裏復活。我現接受耶穌作我的救主及人生的主宰，求你接納我。奉耶穌基督的名祈禱，阿們。

source: http://www.fundamentalbook.com/booklet10.htm

Creative writing

2010-12-12T22:27:00.001+11:00

Did some creative writing today for an assignment, would you proofread it oh people out there whose English is far better than mine. It is suppose to be 600 words but I reached to 500 and only written less than half of the story. Then I resolved to cut the story. Sigh. Maybe I should write another longer version to fully describe what I wanted to portray.

Based on the theme 'Lambs to the slaughter'

“Thump!”, the sharp metal blade banged against the surface as it crushed through the bones, cutting the flesh in half. The blood squirt onto his face. “Ah, what smell” he thought to himself.

“Lucas! Mister Charlie! Would you be so wonderful to fetch me a pound of those minced lamb meat please?” she said as she tap her fingers on the glass. Her ring glints so brightly and it caught someone’s eyes by the light. She turned towards Mrs. Hopes and tapped on her shoulder.

“Mrs. Hopes oh dear Mrs. Hopes how you been doing?” she said as she touched her cheek on Mrs. Hope cheek.

“Very well thank you. You see I am coming out under the sun and now buying some lamb for a pie tonight. I am certainly making progress.” Mrs. Hopes almost had to shout through the crowd’s noise. She stared at her ring on her finger and looked up smiling again.

“Well I hope you are doing just fine. If there is anything I can help do call me. I will be right at your doorstep.” Mary leaned forward, pat on Mrs. Hopes arm, and leaned back. “You have been in that big cold house for too long.”

“Mrs. Hopes!” Mary and Mrs. Hopes turned to see it was Lucas smiling and holding a bag with both hands, as if presenting a gift.

“Oh wonderful, thank you very much” Mrs. Hopes reached for her purse and took out some cash, shoved it into Lucas’ money box and take her minced meat.

“That should be of your help very much Lucas, your hands are full of blood!” Mrs. Hopes said. Lucas smiled and waved goodbye. The crowd quickly filled the space as Mary and Mrs. Hopes squeeze through the people.

The noises, laughter and thumping noises faded, as the sky turned to a golden shade. Lucas wiped off his blood stained face and pushed himself through the swinging door. The door slammed behind him as he walk towards his truck. “L. C. FHER Butcher” is written in bold on his truck, below an illustration of a women is holding a pie in one hand and a lamb shank in the other. He pulled himself up to his seat and drove into the distance.

Eyes opened. The moonlight glared and a figure rise up on his bed, and his shadow covered most his room, making it even darker. He put on his gloves, a mask that covered half of his face and a big black coat. He reached from underneath his bed and pulled out a large bag and swiftly grabbed more things on his way towards his door.

It was dark and cold, and the rain poured lightly on his face as he smiled. “This is just fine”, he thought to himself. He stepped up to a truck and reached his hand above the truck. Out he pull a large cloth that drapped and reached above the wheels. He stepped down again and tied some strings. Then, quickly he got into the truck and drove out of the gates leaving a trail of black smoke.

The truck slowly and carefully creeped towards a white gate, and make a stop under a tree, its shadows covered the truck wholly. The door clicked as he tip toed towards the gate. He firmly pressed the doorbell and hide against the neighbour wall.

“Oh Mary, I didn’t think you would be so quick am I glad to be seeing you again.” Mrs. Hopes pulled her gown and half skipped to the gates. She pushed the gates open and peered out, smiling.

“Mary?”

“Mary oh is this a pr….”

Mrs. Hopes is grabbed from behind, her mouth covered. She could not struggle anymore within seconds as she was dragged into the house. The door shut with a soft click.

Lucas stared at his fireplace, his face glows from the light but the shadows filled his eyes. He sighed as a trail of white smoke blew out through his teeth. He gulped a glass of water and sprayed the rest of the water to the fireplace.

“Thump!”, the sharp metal blade banged against the surface as it crushed through the bones, cutting the flesh in half. The blood oozed out on his face. “Ah, what smell” he thought to himself.

“Lucas! Mr. Charlie!” and old lady in front of him exclaimed. “I found a chipped diamond in your meat yesterday. I should come here to more to find something. Am I so lucky!” she said as he lean back and giggled.

“Oh yes you are indeed you are welcome!” Lucas briefly replied.

“You are very lucky.” Lucas thought to himself as he waved goodbye.

2010-11-06T23:49:00.002+11:00

日记

2010-11-03T23:26:00.000+11:00

今晚，再找空簿子时，看到我的旧日记。很多很多的感叹，有一部份我记得我斯了，因为是很贴身的秘密。幸好没有看到吧？不然会哭的更惨。。。不然也有会勾起刺痛我心胸的回忆。看到我写的每一个字，都是我心里的感受；好的坏的，都让我感叹；因为是我的感受，我知道那时候是怎么样。还有每天写的要立志的东西。几年了？？有哪几个已经实现。差不多每一个都写到‘需要钱实现梦想’。好笑的是，工作了，忙了；累了。梦想统统忘记，说什么没时间呀，没有资源阿。。。借口多多。不过有很多提醒；像是小时候的我在提醒‘大人’的我。。。给你看其中一个。。

“雨下了，代表着我隐藏的泪水，终于为我而流；

雨停了，代表着我苦干的心灵，但周围是滋沦。

阳关出现，代表着希望，照满了湿湿的大地；

彩虹代表着安慰，是我的生命添加不少色彩。

其实它（太阳）一直都在，只是雨水暂时遮盖了太阳。

雨水后太阳的出现，把太阳的阳光，显得更辉煌！”

我在想我什么时候写的，哈哈，再次提醒了自己。自己的话总会听吧？啊小固执？

今天怎么那么多感触，唉该睡了。。。

Haha i knoe its not related to the blog but yea i guess its my 'edit of the day' thing.

Tada

减肥？

2010-11-03T16:30:00.000+11:00

其实我没试过减肥的
但我发觉，最好不要让人知道你减肥
太迟了哈哈！
很大的压力，减肥的过程，我的情绪高潮和低潮时间分差甚短。。
最近就很容易不开心，没有理由的摆臭脸
可能只是需要人的支持，关怀。是的Mandy也需要人拍拍头
但是就是很不一样的感觉呀！就算人家indirectly说一些话,我都觉得好象在讽刺我酱
很难啦，我很在意的。
不知道啦，很想念以前能放松的吃饭
现在还要想这个，想那个，好象越减越肥；反而没有效酱
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR~!~!~!

夏天的雪

2010-10-27T23:24:00.005+11:00

Photo: je Art
Software: Photoshop

其实正打题目时就有了idea了，哈哈！

Shoes, Yes shoes

2010-10-27T21:05:00.003+11:00

Images: GettyImages
Well, photoshop.

草原飞扬

2010-10-26T20:26:00.004+11:00

我要的自由

春天的彩色

年轻真好

Photos from: je Art
Software: Photochopp lor

Hate or Love the wind

2010-10-15T11:45:00.004+11:00

No, no way im not talking about the infamous RAIN, guy with tan skin and long eyes no im talking about this this huge rain this morning when i go to work.

Ever felt that u cannot control things around you and it is not going where it wants to? I DID! I forgot my small umbrella, so i used a big blue one from my sister's car. The wind is crazy and guess what it varies direction (sumtimes). i hate being controlled by the wind.

where do i want to go? I want to go forward, the wind is the other way, so i pressed on using my umbrella as a shield; moving forward. My lovely boots is wet, my hair is going crazy... ughhh, but u knoe wat tats the direction I'm heading to, it is where i have to go.

I knows it's reallyreallyreally hard to go against the wind. But it just feels.. feels weird, feels agonising going with the flow. My heart tells me to do this, but the situation asks otherwise. I know i know im so idealistic but have you ever thought of it realistically that we are born here to learn all these things and those opposing stuff are there to help us grow?

Why am i not talented enough? Why don't I have enough time? Why is she/he so lucky? We are given different assets and resources and it is how we use them. I wanted to use the red umbrella but who knows i was given a ride and used a bigger umbrella instead. I wanted to work in a company that i favoured very much but who knows im working in a friend's workplace. I'd like to think that all these are not coincidence. I believe there's something to seek and learn. I dunno what's in for me I only ask God to guide me.

2010-08-15T19:29:00.002+10:00

A Shoe

A shoe
A new shoe
can be so exciting
so fresh so many hopes
so many expectations

When you walk on the streets
When you look down to your feet
All the wonders will take you whenever you go
The more you wear
The more it mould itself to your feet

You love it
You love it more
You love it even more

Pretty
Bright
Comfy
Brilliant
Perfect

All the good things
you can think of
No matter what people say
You want to hold on

It loves you
so much
Protect your little feet
from sharp stones
from rain
mud puddle dirt
It wishes to stay with you
forever
and so do you

A shoe is still
A s h o e

It will die one day
It will be torn
The sharp stones
The unexpected rain or puddle
The dirt, grease, mud

It does not promise forever
Because you never know when it will vanish
when you will replace your shoe
You love it and it loves you so
It only wishes for a better shoe to replace itself
One day, when it fades...

And the story goes
A new shoe
can be so exciting
so fresh so many hopes
so many expectations

2010-04-19T19:12:00.002+10:00

退色
慢慢退色
慢慢变淡变为不存在
没有了就会好吗
没有了就真的无动于衷吗
还是伤口仍在
只是习惯了？
还是一直在骗自己
不能接受现实
还是硬着在心底留下那么一点希望
所以到现在还没有为它留下一滴眼泪
是长大
还是麻木
还是变成冰冷
不明白
为什么伤心流眼泪是觉得很痛苦
为什么因该伤心的时候掉不出眼泪也那么痛苦
什么是该与不该
什么是顺其自然
什么是孝敬父母
全是垃圾
垃圾应该被送到外太空永远消失
我也该被送到外太空去
想emo时就emo
想开心就开心
别人不能改变一个人的心理
自己作怪
很长人一直在等待别人给与注意
所以emo
所以很明显
怕你看不见
等到失望
等到绝望
绝望到不要有任何表情

2010-04-12T19:27:00.001+10:00

今天上班迟到
真是的
迟到迟到迟到
干吗不早一点睡
明知道自己是一定！要打扮的。。
呵呵....

2010-04-10T22:10:00.002+10:00

明天好期待
要参加同事的婚礼
没参加过印度人的婚礼
满是好奇
虽然是二十一世纪
他们应该会保留一些印度文化吧
嗯！
猜猜看我明天穿什么
是的就是 sari!
哇我没穿过的希望会好看。。
叫我同事拍多一点照片
哎呀好紧张！！
嘻嘻。。。。。

明天会是什么样

2010-04-10T14:42:00.002+10:00

ren sheng ben lai
jiu shi yi zhi zai
huan peng you de

you shen me hao zi qi de?
fa shen me sheng jing zai na li 'zi bao zi qi'
right right?

嗯

2010-04-10T02:04:00.002+10:00

郁闷
郁闷得很
他们说
每天臭臭脸
会越来越少朋友
原来是真的
与人越来越距离
痛不懂怎样
能做什么

为了fit in
而改变的我
好累
我的自己
无法容纳任何位置吗
等到死吗
我真正是怎样
到底我是谁
镜子里的我为什么还活着站在这里
她感觉我所感觉
看我所看
做我所做
如果我是他
感觉是怎样
如果我是他
如果我是她
感觉是又怎样
你没想过吗

每次人看到我这么无聊
写酱东西
就叫我去睡觉
虽然我等一下真的去睡觉
但是睡觉起来
去上班
回来
还是想一样东西
等一下又发脾气
等一下有妒忌什么什么
不累才怪
也弄到别人累
所以
差一点变成冷冷的
冰冷可怕的女人
所以
越来越少知己

最近才冒险给自己机会
相信有好朋友
一直以来觉得不敢不配
现在还是一点点怕怕
保留一点点也好
好像好长
你也累了我也累了
去睡觉
明天会更好吗

Sunflowers

2010-02-23T19:45:00.002+11:00

Read title. Yes. Sunflowers. Well its my favourite flower. Not very feminine, not exactly masculine. I remember it is when i was young, i saw my sister plucking a neighbour's sunflower plant. I forgot why she need it for but i know i love the colour, shape and its strong stem because i can see how she struggles to pluck it away. It seems as though it is hard to be conquered.. Then, for some reason we've got sunflower seeds. We plant it in a pot and watch it grow day by day. In a blink it has grown into a humongous yellow flower. I was short then of course. Looking up to see this stretching plant i felt satisfied. Every night we would make it stand in the middle of the lawn and watch the water sprinkle on it from the watering hose. One day it died. Our maid put it out to the sun and we hav even more seed. Seeing it just once is enough. Came to melbourne, i tried to plant it but it didn't last long of course. Such scorching weather kills it after it has grown so FAT. It is so beautiful i dunno why. If i were to ask a gift I'd like to have a sunflower farm, FULL of sunflowers. I am so much opposite to this flower. I'm fragile, hate the sun, and dull. When i'm upset, i got angry to cover my sadness; ppl think i am crazy and cold hearted. When i make mistakes, even little ones; i try to blame others or just got angry, again. LOL. When im scared of ppl's reaction, i lol-ed. When im shy, i lol-ed. My actions contradicts to my so call principles i set for myself. My heart felt to do things that contradicts to 'what i should do'. Choosing b/t caring too much and not care at all. I hate making conclusions. Conclusions doesnt have to be positive? Do i have to say oh like the sunflower i should be bla bla? Mayb i like and hate the way i am now. Maybe i like the fact that i hate myself. If you dun get it i understand. Prob nobody is as crazy as me. Im crazily in love and in hatred. OF myself.

2009-09-08T01:00:00.002+10:00

weeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~~~~~~~~~~

This video is part of what we showed in the presentation today...
crunch time!!!!

bai!

My uni life

2009-08-31T21:55:00.005+10:00

This post is for who still dunno what i am really doing in my uni course... maybe this will be most useful for Mum.. haha! But anyways....

Well basically my course is game design, we learn various aspects of making a game, from photoshoping skills to how to create a character or using existing game engines to make it work in game; i.e. gameplay, creating game levels, use created 3D art to make it fleshed out in the game!

These are some screenshots of what I have done last semester.... As you can see we have neglected the scale of the train! We have too much to do and we forgot to see the overall picture of the project...

And.... we have made an alteration quite significantly.. Yea that thing on top is a trigger ignore that haha.. So i want to achieve a slightly desaturated 1800 survival horror theme... going away from the 'pretty' look...
still in progress obviously......

And.... we are still looking for GAME MUSIC MAKERS!! Bear in mind, this is a free game... It would be an opportunity to show off ur music making skills in a game mod made by serious modders.... if u r interested email me.

Tada!

2009-07-11T16:07:00.002+10:00

如果你有
用不完的盐
用不完的油
用不完的面粉
用不完的糖
和
用不完的的米。。。

你会拿来干嘛？

2009-07-07T16:29:00.004+10:00

fingernails scratching the alphabetical squares
eyes blinking off the glaring box
toes stroking wires
chest pressed against the table
windows 100 tabs
1880 europe facebook blogger in box and RMIT
shopping lists
never ending
just because
nail clipper forgotten pressed under wrist
familiar aroma
tofu rice chicken oil n grease
You have received an email from Facebook
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wat else

Playing around

2009-06-30T22:58:00.001+10:00

2009-05-03T14:58:00.002+10:00

Budget Pasta salad

2009-03-27T18:14:00.002+11:00

Hoho! This is so acidic. Lemon juice, sweet chilli, olive oil, salt, pepper. The leaves are from my own salad container. Not bad at all, crisp and sweet. Pasta are leftovers from lastnite hehe. Tuna from safeway four tins for $1. So cheap dish...

2009-03-14T21:33:00.003+11:00

It makes me want to hope
over and over again
Not everybody's dream is to have the richest of the world
But the richest in heart few could get
Even if you fail
you can say hey I'm still alive i can still
Feel.
There IS something to live for
whether if it's your wife, her hair tied in a bun, her weak smile breaks your heart
your friends who is there for you and share the same dream
your child who disobeys but giggles that just melts ur heart away
your soul mate who gives you warmth
why is this happening
why does everytime i cease to believe there's someone who teach me how to hope again
why do i think there must be someone who's somewhere beyond imagination beyond human mind
that put me in this place
somehow someday
I will be in that beyond
and anything that happens here right now
does not matter.

williamstown

2009-01-17T21:56:00.004+11:00

One of my favourite views from the trip to Williamstown. I love looking into the depths of the background, it seems all my heavy stress in my head are lifted and stg warm run through my body. I love this one because of the contrast of curly branches and twits in the shadows and behind it is the golden sun lit uniform stretch of palm trees. And then a bird flew pass and shit on your head. Classic.

New Year

2008-12-30T20:13:00.003+11:00

I wonder why do I smile untill like that? Just showing you one of the pics I left off in my assignment. Yea...

BTW, What are your goals for the New Year?

Mine? Wow lots....

-Graduate my uni course (not only graduate but have a great excellent project outcome)
-Be earning my own money ongoing period (my first is AUD$70) maybe an online business?
-Spirituality: Devotion at least 20 mins everyday
-And career path!! Choices:
A-Work in USA (either participating in the program or get internship)
B- Get interviews in Melbourne work as a Graphic Designer or animator or modeller if I'm capable to impress
C- Get my own studio? Hmmmmmmm

Just one question. If you were to start an online business, what would you sell? I've been thinking, and I'm kinda serious about it, the 'kinda' is because right now I'm a full time student AND no one's been encouraging me to do it. Bcoz I'm having 'unrealistic goals/dreams'. You know maybe im not gonna be a regular worker who works from 9 to 5. We'll see about that in a few yrs, or longer hehe. Tada!

Merry Christmas!!!!!

2008-12-25T20:05:00.002+11:00

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Merry Christmas! Have a Blessed Christmas! So what did you do with your family? Eating with friends? Family? Alone? Anyway, its to remember that Christ is born for us, so how cool is that.
Thinking about shopping tomolo at DFO, prices are slashed, retail salesperson can just sit and receive cuh-ching, and then we can't wait for our next month salary. Well hope so. W/e it is we have received the ultimate gift, Jesus. What will not God give us if we need it? Think about this I will feel much more secured. I don't know about you but start to Give thanks today, in poor or in prosper.

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Harvesting

2008-12-23T16:09:00.007+11:00

From seedlings from Bunnings to this!

Super duper mini vegie salad patch, in a wink its ready for harvest! :) When it is above 4 inch long cut the leaves on the outer of the plant. The small leaves will grow. I can harvest this all year round, supplied with salad greens!! Then I blanched it nad store in the freezer.

right side is harvested.

tomato plant's growing! seems so fast!

ouch! really how do u grow celery properly? hmmm..

A very happy watering Anna.

At the end of the day you got a week's supply.

2008-12-11T17:51:00.000+11:00

2008-11-26T14:06:00.003+11:00

Lately been going to box hill and the web to send out my resume. Hope at least one call back. Am I that bad? Yes i know one big problem is I dun have experience at all. But I have been preparing for so long. Reviewing my resume and cover letters using the guide and repolishing my work samples or portfolio. Work I've done in church is not convincing at all. Of course coz I didn't use the required design development stages they wouldnt care anyway haha.

I wonder how many people have my information for the past months. Or maybe i should stalk one company by company. bwahahahah~ anyway wish me luck and hope this summer is not wasted.

2008-11-21T16:32:00.004+11:00

HOORAY! New shoes for the summer look. Well its a bargain coz its way cheaper than RRP at L&L for some reason. I researched and this shop did came out on the tonybianco website so cant get it wrong. Skipper is its name. Yar im a skipper. Breakfast n lunch skipper, chores skipper, skip skip skip. And...

fixed my lovely peep toe heels at the local mint. For some reason its a bit wonky after that. No!! I demand you fixed it again. I wonder if u knoe shoes. Next time try it on urself and see.. teeheehee~ $44 for a wonky shoe. =.= Ppl will be like, 'wat r u doing Mr. wonka?' 'Erm, ntg just these chocolate shoes keep wonking' ... ... ... ... ... (crow sounds)

what the?

anyway tonight going to tgi Friday for dear sister's b'day. Bought a present too. Not telling you wat is it. bwahahahhaha~

Walked back n fro box hill, sweat a little bit not bad. I might be a ble to sleep tonight. Pray that i can sleep! Bye~

2008-11-20T19:02:00.002+11:00

mm hmm.. Yes been DIY-ing stuff and one of them is bag!! from old jeans. Eco-friendly things.. yes im certainly doing done good for the earth. Check out threadbanger for details on how to make. Pretty cute~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7jyTtTaEXv8

2008-11-18T23:02:00.005+11:00

mm hmmm... yes shoes shoes! Another one from Tony Biancoo, lalala~~ This afternoon went to dfo saw the top one. Gladiator madness as expected, seeling gladiator shoes everywhere. But for a comfy walk a flat sandal's a better idea. But but the high heels tan is on sale! tried on them not bad. After ten mins i didn't buy anything. Went research rrp is $100 but that's $70. Havent wear high heels for a while now I hate to reexperience the pain! But for beauty wat's worth? Hope its still there when i go back. U know bargain dun last long.

2008-11-17T18:05:00.003+11:00

Sewing machine? anyone? I need one right now! yes shove one to me right now into the screen. Wow u know how expensive r sewing machines? I only need it for summer coz there's lots of alterations for me to do. Yes. Anyway, mum's b'day is coming out soon, i've been thinking of doing an animation as a gift, put it up youtube and all and she will be like, 'Oh, so that's wat you have been learning.' You know sumtimes things need to be shown and all that talking doesnt make sense to her. anyway wish me luck.

2008-11-14T22:18:00.004+11:00

Oh ya! Nearly forgot about this one. Well not my favorite but i think this can be a good character for film as it portrays the idea of hidden self identity or split personality. I can say the idea is inspire by myself. Will update for a short about tis doll.

2008-11-13T17:59:00.005+11:00

yay! finished my 3d assignment and here's how it looks like. Unfortunately i haven had the time to put the story of the character in the animation. This cycle is more practical for in games. Will update during summer break.

2008-09-04T20:09:00.003+10:00

You know what happens when u wan to eat stg so much? You make it lar... == So that day i managed to make shortbreads, use wrong caster sugar becoz its the fine sugar not the ungrind de. But it tastes okay.. ma sister left the whole box in her room and next to my room and then its gone. So much for sweetnesss and fat buttery biscuits. ><'' Unfortunately its all gone before i can take a picture!

100g Butter
50g Caster Sugar
150g Plain flour

Beat butter and sugar, stir or fold in flour. Leave for 20 mins in fridge or outside(I think its cold enough lately), bake for 15 mins or till golden yellow. Leave to cool. Indulge.

...pretty easi eh? In order to be good at baking have to start from easi ones. To me personally me not a baking person. But neways, what's next? Egg tarts? or Cheese cake.

Dinner today is Asam pedas fried fish and stir-fry spinach. Plus ADDitional food, wicked wings, popcorn chicken and cookies and cream drink. O.o You want us be fat ah ah san XD.

2008-08-26T14:41:00.002+10:00

Wallace & Gromit Say Cheese!

By Erik Pedersen

Tue 26/08/08

They've modeled clay, but now Wallace & Gromit are modeling the latest fashions.

The cheese-loving claymates are the newest faces for the British department store Harvey Nichols, exchanging their usual sensible mix of tweeds, sweater vests and dog collars with finery from designers Alexander McQueen, Dolce & Gabbana and Giorgio Armani. And Wallace love interest Lady Tottington will be seen sporting some Christian Louboutin stilettos, according to the U.K.'s Sun.

While we still have to wait for the duo's next animated adventure, the currently in-production A Matter of Loaf and Death, we're perfectly willing to accept them as our next top models.

Because that's one fierce dog.

—Via Jezebel

Communication

2008-08-25T23:18:00.003+10:00

Remember i was in Malaysia, i was a total wooden girl, with eyes that can kill and golden mouth, thats what ppl say. Even now, sumtimes i'm like that. I am scared by myself. o.O Since coming here to Melbourne for some reason I brighten out a teeny bit. Sumtimes my face still give a wrong indication to people that I 'bu shuan' them. Reli, i didn't mean anything! I need a mirror to practise smiling.=D

So, ppl say communication is the key. If a husband and a wife didn't communicate for a year, u think they will still feel for each other? Hmmm..... yea you would say 'Yea, if their luv is true then no matter time space bla bla bleh bluek....' Anyway, some tips i pick up from some video..

For guy
girl handle stress by talking, talk talk talk talk talk. Some things guy cannot do when they are doing the talk.
-'Its not a big deal. Get over it.'
-'You should do this. You should do that' (they not looking for advice)
-'har? what did u say?'
-'Did u see where i put my keys?'

Do little things. Its those little things that made your girl's day. It's not always a grand b'day party or stg reli big.
Flowers. A hug. Write a little note. Tie her shoe. Offer to help comb her hair(a killer). Open the door for her. 'I love you'. Clean up your room(seriously r u tat tidy? I dun think she's happy u clean up HER room).
Okay, they MADE you a gift. Wow, its not reli ur taste haha. And you have to wear it O.O........
The solution is....... wear it! Because you will find her asking 1000 times a day 'where's that thing i gave you?'

For girl
Before the talk, tell him to listen to you till the end. All he has to do is look at your face (although he always says its big), and nod his head.

Really after your talk and he's done something to cheer u up, dun bring it up again after that. If you're happy, he's happy too.

Guys are really slow, like tortoise. Tell them discreetly what's wrong, dun spill out in front of his friends. Man's ego! Help them to realize things. When u r unhappy, you need to speak up as well because they are slow.

When they want to be alone, leave them be. Wait for them to come back and talk to you.

Don't ask them to say 'I love you' ALL the time. For guys, they did the initial dating and all that, they thought they have done it. They just think they don't want to do it the second time when they have expressed enough. If they dun love you why do they still even care.

Ok. They gave u stg they think they went to the skies and get it. Seriously even if u DON'T reli like it, appreciate it and scream with joy.(we girls r actually happy with a gift even wit a pair if green socks, hey how many times do we get a gift per year)
-Oh before I end this, sumtimes i find guy's a bit like girl. Yea, don't say he's such a girly. How many times can we actually see him become a small little tortoise and submissive. Let them express when they want to, its actually healthy.

big ppl and little ppl

2008-08-23T21:50:00.002+10:00

Today for some reason im mentally physically spiritually socially exhausted. I tot it's going to be a merry day, with everything planned and stuff. I know i cant lead everything i need sum1's help to listen to me, thanks to Sing Ee. I only hope my idea could help finish this job no other intentions. I know there are holes in everything y not celebrate it and look at it optimistically and smile for the mistakes? I don't sense a complete togetherness in this although we ARE together. I dunno..

Okay, finish blurting out, back home; i said one sentence, 'hey today our thingy today's a little bit chaotic.' Expressionless, expressionless. Not a word. Hmm, okay maybe u dun ve a voice anymore. And your quiet statement is 'Im busy cleaning up tis house, no one does nothing so i deserve to shut up and sweep with dignity'. Okay, that's only my guess of your head there.

Yea, little people sumtimes have to guess what big ppl are thinking. Even when writing blogs i have to think. Is human expression now becoming more of a digital one. Since one on one is USELESS, lets embrace our square face monitor who accepts anything by just click of a button.

2008-08-21T22:38:00.003+10:00

Today grabbed a snackbox from kfc, which means more fat coming thru my body, bleh~ I was too hungry, that time was 7.30pm my class ends, man this cant go on! Y there's a sushi shop just beside der! In the train chewing the wicked wings, ahahaah there's sum1 drooling, and annoying faces. Meh~ im eating my food thank you, and yes I dun look like a pig yes be jealous. hahahah...

2day's about skeleton, yes i can actually create skeleton n joints, but yes the Almighty God's creation on human is still best of the best. Let me show u my character...

Yea, a bit odd; my eccentric style... anticipating to transform it into a moving one. O.O a nightmare to have sum1 like that in your room (evil face). neway, tomorrow is 9 am class, to be able to wake up is a miracle. So anticipate again, craziness~~~~~

2008-08-20T14:57:00.003+10:00

2day my class' from 5.30pm till 8.30!!!! when i got home its 9.30 near 10. Why? why? y?.. oh my my~ so im sitting ere typing... got stomachache headache sumthin ache bleh bluek bliak.......... But its normal for me wakekeke. Need to get out of the house one hour b4 class, or else GUARANTEE b late. If I can afford it I live in city. yay! But no, my house bigger than apartment, ohohoho~ neway, i hope the projector works edi today... Dun you turn off after mins it only slows our learning progress, which means more f f f from da teacher which means one day i will burst out f as well. Ok, i dun like to swear, even neva swear in chinese(becoz i dunno wat is der XD) The only word i eva eva swear in my whole entire life is 'shit'. Which is a noun and could be not a swear word but still. Gah! The bible says no swearing upon God or anything that lives in the air or ground or in the water. Hmmmmm i think shit lives on da ground. or sumtimes in the water fishies produces it. In the air would b da birds.. but eventually landed on the ground or sum unlucky person, and there they go 'shit'x10000000' ohohohohoooo~~ craziness GTG ciao

milo affair

2008-08-20T12:30:00.000+10:00

guess what? well im making milo cookies today. very rare. Like once in a purple moon. Havent touch tis kind of stuff for ages. First I test one small bit in the oven ( i always do that to anything). Turns out like a milo cake XD. so i add more flour and knead n bla bla... and turns out O K. at least the texture's like biscuits. Im only more confident in stir fry than baking. When comes to baking, im clumsy but hey its still edible... as you can see~
But anywho, today i skipped class y? Coz i only slept at 3 because of assignment, so baka... but i only skipped because i know i can go to the Thursday class. Hmmm... lately my undereyes are a bit dry dry. Maybe because i put white pencil on the pink flesh its getting lack of oxy or stg. o.o? Addicted to white pencil but lately din wear any make up. Yes of course i loook better in make up because it means i dun ve to be cautious of rubbing my eyes. I always rub my eyes and da mascara's like 'help help im turning into clusters and pretending im a black eyeshadow. Yes perfect disguise for, 'Did u sleep last nite' 'Coz i did, tis is natural.' ..... 'Yea.' -.- Man im back in the viral of blogging. One day i'll be vlogging and my mum will kill me but that won happen, i dun think i want to stick my face to the webcam and show the whole world my square face. Yes, time to go eat milo cookies with a cup of milo, maybe a touch of melted white choc? Tell me yes.

craziness

2008-08-18T03:12:00.000+10:00

Craziness' probably not the correct spelling but who cares? Its da same as 'fierce' used by
Christian 'Soprano' or what i forget thats how i remembered it. I quite like the personality that fashion designers and some guya have that really 'gay' but not gay type. But personality like that for other half, no no. More like totally opposite but not too much as well or will scared the craziness out of me and over macho and stone type not being themselves is no no. Btw, haters of wrong spellers of fan's name, apologies, lazy to google just for the sake of blog perfection~ dunk craziness in soy sauce, chilli sauce, coffee, put it by your bed, bring it to da toilet, its still craziness coz its so cool n full of awesomeness and craziness. Talking about craziness, today our design studio's lesson is about 'playing Wii' as in playing Wii. woohoo! yes very fun with screen size of craziness. And we have to design a Wii game, yes crazi anticipation. And tomorrow 3D char animation, double craziness + a really patient teacher = triple craziness (although for some reason some ppl complain about her). Hmmmm teacher that ppl dun like i actually like, o.o. Remember during high school when ppl dun like a teacher i was like, 'yea yea me too me too she/he's so retarded.' Bluek i dun like da word retarded now its a bit 'out' to me. Yea writing a blog full of randomness to award myself for finishing an assignment in few hrs. yay! Confidence rising... full craziness. This morning i watched a film called Exorcism of Emily Rose; scared da craziness out of me, so scary! Because its a true story. Its about a Catholic girl being possesed by demons. to talk about it i have goosebumps. Thats why brought my mp3 and listen to Christian songs. Funny, but calms me down. Really i dun like watching horror movie, and to watch a real life story about demons. Craziness. Pray, pray. Hmmm these days there's like sumthin tugging in my heart dunno whats that. So weird. When u r alone, it comes back a little while. Hope craziness is real and not just for cover up or an escape thingy. God lead me in everyway, please i just want to study, other stuff please dont come bursting at me or i will X_X and O.o and o.O and (dunno how to react face). ohohohohohohohoho~~~~~~~~~~~~~ sum1 stop me from typing!

Tada!

2008-08-10T23:26:00.000+10:00

tada! Long time after a msn space suicide, here i am again... continue the chatterbox and cry baby self... yes yes anticipate..